TENGRUI

2008-02-23T23:01:00.001+08:00

Someone's birthday is in one hour, haha!

2008-02-13T10:19:00.000+08:00

easiest grouping i've ever had in this 4 years for second round. but like coach said.. we must maintain our standard. there's still a chance of losing to any team in this round if we don't play our style of the game. we must control the court.

its kinda obvious how i can be able to blogging at this early hour on a school day. i'm not the only who skipped school.

super tired now.. zz..

JAPAN IF WE GET NATS TOP 4!! LETS WORK HARD GUYS. (:

2008-02-07T10:23:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!

新年快乐！(:

2008-02-06T21:41:00.000+08:00

What Loh Teng Rui Means

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.
You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.
You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.
You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.
Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.
And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.
You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

to my amazement.. most of it is accurate. >.<

2008-02-06T17:40:00.000+08:00

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its a really nice show (:

2008-02-04T21:27:00.000+08:00

对不起。

im letting my mind wander off to some other stuff again. some thing that isn't important currently. actually it is.. but than.. it seems hopeless.

fuck la tengrui.. focus on tomorrow's match please.

2008-02-04T18:05:00.000+08:00

THANK YOU ZIXIANG FOR SAVING ME BY LENDING ME A SPARE HANDPHONE! (:

i cant live a day without smsing anymore.. its amazing that my bill is exploding despite the fact i only sms one person. =\

school was boring as usual.. nothing special happened. hmm.. except the fact that yicheng and ben challenge each other to virtual tennis on psp. loser do dunnno wad stupid thing. anyway.. all this aint important.

23 more hours.

dunman u guys better bring the best u guys got if not u guys will jus be leaving with a lost tml. we wont lose. we cant lose. especially not on our home ground. anxious...

2008-02-02T23:49:00.000+08:00

training in de morn today. was a friendly match against some dunman high alumi whose ages are more de 2x of ours. >.< lost... 107-92.

the lost was my fault. for not controlling myself in de 1st quarter which led to the big score difference. sry.

went 85 eat lunch. ian came to find me. den i cabbed home. he came over watch show on my comp while i did work. he left and not long after, ben came. we did some work. and slacked. left my place around 550 to go eastpoint to meet edmund for our dinner. had kfc... cabbed to school again for the band concert.

it was not bad.. but i was entertained by other things. went simpang eat after that and took a bus home. reach home and first thing was my dad scolding me. fucker..

this post seems boring.. oh well.. its only my physical body typing here and my mind is just somewhere else..

someone is not gonna be 15 anymore. but perhaps its not for me to bother.

2008-01-31T20:37:00.000+08:00

match against changkat today.. kinda waste time. but coach told us to use it to train. especially the last 24 sec of the game where he said we had to make a 3pt shot if not saturday training gotta run 10 rounds of steps. we managed to pass the 'test' thks to jasper.

i failed on the first attempt. fuck.

personally i tink i didn't play well today. despite de fact that we won by 103-22.. i tink de defence wasn't strong enough.. we actually let them scored 14 of their 22 mins in de 4th quarter.

next match against dunman.. there's only 1 thing that is important... i want to win.

got lots of other comments acty but none i wish to say here.

there's lit homework to do... and english and social studies. im totally not in de mood to do work la.................... zz.. i cant bring myself to focus on studying. too much things going through my head now..

super super fan nao...................................................................

2008-01-30T10:21:00.000+08:00

SCHOOL IS PURE BULLSHIT.

2008-01-29T21:03:00.000+08:00

once in 2 days once in 2 days once in 2 days .....

i acty wanted to post pictures today from sunday's dinner. went to celebrate lk/zoots birthday. apparently i dun have any with me.. so.. this is gonna be a short post cause............

of various reasons:
1) my headache sucks
2) my neck is aching too
3) im tired
4) there's nothing to post bout
5) its getting boring to blog
6) i just dun have de mood to do anything.. not even play dota sia.

fuckk la........ whats wrong wid me.. zzZzzzzzZzzzzzzzz..

2008-01-27T14:42:00.000+08:00

just a quick post before i go out. im already late......... BUT IM KEEPING MY PROMISE TO SOMEONE WHO IS GONNA OWE ME A FREE CAB RIDE HOME TML AS LONG AS I DUN FALL ASLP IN CLASS (:

first of all.... HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY LIANGKAI! (:

there's chem test tml. and i dun have time to study for it.. zzz.. i wanna do well so mrs lam will shut here bloody irritating annoying noisy mouth of hers. whole day telling me drop to combine sci -.- feel like slapping her sometimes seriously. but sad she's my teacher so i cant do anything.

reaching home late tonight.. gotta study chem agn when i get home.. meaning slping late tonight. >.<

okk.. im suppose to meet the guys at 3pm. super late~

2008-01-25T20:24:00.000+08:00

match: against telok kurau
final score: 85 to 20 something
time played: 1st quarter and 2-4 mins of 4th quarter
points: 13
injuries: 2

i got a bruise on my head and elbow.. zzz... i fell down today during de 1st quarter. cant really rmb how it happened. hahah. den someone elbowed my head and it hurts. >.<

presents! jan is ending soon and here comes feb. de birthday month. lots of ppl's birthday in feb. die die die.. must buy so many presents. still got valentines. kaooooooooo. haha. i haven't decided wad to get for almost everyone. only bothered to settle one special person's present (:

i feel that school is nonsense.. especially when they only release sports players 1 hour before their match. stupid boon. -.-

2008-01-23T18:54:00.000+08:00

JEFF HARDY ROCKS!

lol.. im like a small kid thinking that wwe stunts are real. some are and some aint. >.<

im suppose to update once every 2 days. im keeping my word to someoneeeee(:

school was boring today. couldn't pay attention wad so ever. learnt hmm... nothing? jia lat. its 'o' lvl year and im still slacking. not one bit serious in studies. i need someone to force me to study...................

there's sch agn tml.. bullshit sia.. i dun wan to go...

2008-01-21T21:34:00.000+08:00

since a kind soul has helped me change my blogskin and requested me to revive it. i shall. (:

its already de 21st day of sch le. it was a boring day today. didn't learn much. and i swear chinese is de stupidest ever. make us memorise gonghang for dunno wad la.... its uselesss.. wasteee of timeeeeeeee. some more we're being tested on it tml sia. zzz.. cant be bothered unless someone really convinces me to study.

had 2nd match today. against springfield. we won 70-20. im glad we won by that much im not impressed by my own performance. bullshit sia.. zzz.. ohh well... shoot more, run more, jump more, pass more, hardwork more? bball is more stressful de 'o's sia. but perhaps thats one of the reasons i love it so much.

next match against i-dunno-who on friday at 1pm. shiokkkkk.. skipping sss agn. wahahaha. (:

oh ya and one more thing............. someone refuse to pay me 50cents for sweet so i count it as stealing! ): haha. i updated already ~~~~

2008-01-19T20:00:00.000+08:00

CHANGED SKIN ALREADY.

Taiwan drama(s) are SUPER GOOD :)
Haha!

2007-10-26T10:16:00.000+08:00

school started at 725 today. im still at home. its de last day of school. go and get report book only.. zz.. im real bored with nothing to do.. zzzzz..

2007-10-18T00:07:00.000+08:00

school was damn boring today. first thing was a chinese mock exam paper. to make things worse. it was only paper 1 meaning that paper 2 is tml. we were given 2 hours to do it. im expecting i failed badly cause i spent 1 and a half hour slping. lol.. went the chinese tea thingy after the exam. it was kinda hmm.. boring.. but i enjoyed the tea and ice cream puff.

after school cabbed to yicheng house with kenneth. played psp there and ate lunch. had pizza. i dunno why but i had a craving for it for quite some time already. dunnnnno la. eat it le jiu hao lor. hmm..i came home at about 3. they came over too. cabbed home. and the cab driver was fucking funny. hahaha. racist also. trubans......... LOL. they played dota on my laptop and comp. i didn't play. watched them play as im a good host. hahaha. left at around 450 to got tm to meet the others and school after it.

had to come back school cause sec1 tp sec3 sports players, student councilors and PRC students had free tickets for a singapore slinger's match. had to assemble in sch at 615. on the bus there.. i was so damn boredddd... everyone was playing their psp and my was out of batt. my charger spoil den cant charge. zzz.. and i also tink that my batt got problem cause it seems to run flat real quickly. irritatingg.. i tink it costs me bout 40 bucks or more to replace both those items.

so the match at the indoor stadium was ok. apparently the home team lost. haha. ohhh yaaaa... and i and caught a cap. haha. the cheer leaders were throwing caps to de audience. i caught one. but all the angmoh children immediately crowd around me and ask to have it. haha. i gave to the cutest boy. (: i did a good deed. denise has a picture of him. the photo is taken by her. haha.

okk... apparently the photo is suppose to be here but i cant upload it...... zzzz..

took the school bus back to school. on the way.. i talked to a ref and he gave me lots of advised. i tink i understand my problems better now. haha. thks dude. (:

when we reached sch.. it was already 10+ ? some ppl wanted to eat. i decided to go home. mrt home with edmund, liangkai and kenneth. at simei and blah blah blah.. my own problems ^^

okok.. i cut alot of stuff cause im sort of in a hurry to post it. hahaha. tml den post agn.

msged someone that doesn't exist anymore..

2007-10-16T22:45:00.000+08:00

i've been super lazy to blog for hmm.. de past few weeks. almost a month? well.. im back here to entertain myself once again. (:

exams are over. finally.. but my results are so fucked up. failed 3 subjects. both amaths and emaths accompanied by chemistry. not only that.. the rest of my subjects are all just pass only. nth above 55? pathetic results. and amazingly.. this was de exam i put in the most effort for. wad a disappointment man. maybe i aint cut out to study. haha. well.. i tried my best?? :\

have been chionging fun since after exams. have had so little sleep for the past 6 days. shall catch up on my sleep over the weekends. almost all de 2h'o6 boys have got a psp now. so fun. haha. next time class gathering all we need is a shelter and many many many electric sockets to charge our psp. sit on the floor can le. hahaha. but apparently........ my charger spoil -.- gotta go buy new one.

trainings trainings trainings. gonna die during them. well.. better during them than during tournament. next year is my last tournament in secondary school. in the anglican high jersey. i really wanna win. retain our championship title. fuck sia.... and i've been still performing like shit. even coach agrees im one of the lousier players in the team now. wad the fuck am i doing man. zzzzzzz....... knn.

everything seems so screwed now. fucked up results.. fucked up family.. fucked up hmm.. basketball. however.. everything is because of me. my own fault and its undeniable. i already noe my fucking problem. but how do i correct it? -.-

memories everywhere in simei. kinda saddening zz..

2007-09-25T21:33:00.000+08:00

there's 7 more days to EOYs! 15 more days to YEEEEEEEEEHAW!

why cant time move faster now? why only move faster when we're having fun?? tmddd~ hahaha.

still got loads to study sia.. have to practice both amath & emath. haven't started on SS, history and lit. finished half of physics and 1 chapter of chemistry. there's still chinese and english. 7 more days. i need to finish at least chemistry and practise all de chapters for amaths. history im studying de day before the paper. literature also. SS is another problem. -.-

im not exactly worried for other papers. kaoooo.. i make sure next year i will have a head start in revising so i will have more time. so little time so much to study!

looking forwards to after exams man. last paper comfirm stand on chair shout cheongheng. den go party yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeehaw! water rugby at ian's house hopefully. hahahah. and psp night on the saturday at my place. shiokk ah..

come on tengrui work hard and dun give up. everything is gonna be worth it. ^^

2007-09-22T15:05:00.000+08:00

last night was suppose to be 'monster hunter' night in school during the mooncake festival thingy. apparently it was more fun. because it was 'cheongheng' night. hahhaha.

shouting cheongheng has become a must for every assembly. haha. ytd before de performance even started we all shout. got ppl clap. hahhaha. the best sia. de performances were ok.. except for the last one. was super boring. ended up playing psp during the assembly.

everyone went canteen for err.. dinner. haha. the most irritating shout was "COULD THAT BE??~ CHEONGHENG~" hahahah. we shouted that the moment we saw him in the canteen. we also used this err.. technique to shout at ourselves.. like how we try to shout at ben "COULD THAT BE??~ REBENCCA~" hahaha. he ran away. sry dude.

oh ya.. cheongheng ran away too the moment we shouted that. haha. so we slacked around canteen first. after that we got bored and went find him. haha. the moment we saw him from a distance.. we shouted "COULD THAT BE??~ CHEONGHENG~" than all of us chiong over. run over somemore den keep shouting "CHEONGHENG!!!" shout like mad. laugh until buaytahan all fall on the floor. i tink most of us were tearing?? i was. hahaha.

that was first round only. haha. cause no energy then so need rest and lots of water. haha. dinner came and we ate. after that hunting round 2. more or less de same thing. but we were combing the school grounds in groups la. dunno wad orange group apple group banana group. haha. damn lame. orange group located the target first. den all chiong agn and shout shout shout. haha.

attempted to go up clocktower.. apparently it was locked. haha. after coming down from clocktower.. we met drboon and vp! talk cock with them. haha. damn funny. we showed them our 'cheongheng' cheer. haha. monday got special program.. haha. cant wait.

after that err... i tink it was at the fitness corner taking photos le bah.. not alot of photos. jus group photos. it was 2g/h'06. yupp. sportsclass rocks la (:

thats all about yesterday.. pictures aint wid me yet. maybe i will blog bout today tonight after tuition. (:

2007-09-17T20:38:00.000+08:00

life is something filled with challenges. challenges that make us stronger. challenges.. that can be a real pain in the ass. lol. like the EOYs that are in 2 weeks.

im feeling hmm.. weird now. but its a nice weird feeling.. but bad in another way. it angers me but i feel damn shiok leh. im smiling when im not happy. a new emotion? perhaps after having a nice cold war for nearly a year and just arguing again has woke me up somehow..

being together was everything.. but now whats left is nothing. just memories. i know what i did was something i had to do.. something i had to say.. to make things clear to you and more importantly to myself. apparently the attempt the make it clear to you was a failure.. but at least i know whats the right thing to do now. i lie sometimes but at least a admit to them after time, like how i did 2 days ago. i cant live with a lie for some reason. maybe you can so good for you. im gonna be who i am and just live on with this hmm.. lost. its gonna be one of my most treasured memories im sure. sorry it has to be a memory without a happy ending.

well.. im not gonna become like you.. i shall thank you too. firstly.. you're de greatest impact in my life so far. for example.. because of you i hmm.. learned to behave better. haha. as in not always talking back to parents/teachers. not as much already but still got. i learned to study. somehow i do so a bit. jus a little bit. i noe it aint enough for me to pass this year and next years 'o' lvls. hmm.. i learned to be patient. like waiting almost every morning for you to get out of bed and tie your hair, put on your shoes properly etc. i learned what was 'family'. i don't really see my parents as 'family' as well.. you know. you were really more or less all i had. let me see.. i learned to o2jam. and perhaps blog too. lol.. i rmb the first time i did when i did either of them. like some clown like tat. hmm.. i learned to take care of something and treasure it. apparently that was something i failed at hmm.. mastering. =\

i thank you for all those. not you you. but the previous you.

so after all this time.. lets see what im still practicing. i dont talk back to teachers anymore. i jus ignore. except for tantaiha who really sucks. haha. my parents i talk back sometimes. but when i do so is surely over the limit de. i take care of my things better. like hmm.. psp! i study more den i did last year. and ya i do my own homework. -.-

cool.. reflection for the past year. i've changed a lot. for the better perhaps. you've changed too.. not so much to my liking. ok la. not not so much. is kinda a lot. haha. who cares now. everyone changes. i really did feel for you then. but its the past now. the fucking past that i shouldn't have screwed up. i mean 'we'.

well.. i've gotta say this. FINALLY.

2007-09-15T23:00:00.000+08:00

today is such a fucked up day for me.. all bad things seem to happen to me sia.. kns.

firstly.. had to go sbc for photo-taking in the morn. walked to mrt station.. and half way.. it rained. -.- tmd.. at sbc.. was shooting ball.. miss more den i score. played a few matches.. miss most of my underbasket shots and layups.. after that go home.. wasn't any lunch for me.. so i cooked my own maggie mee at bout 4. ate and slpt cause dun wan anymore bad thing happen.

woke up.. was already 7. tuition was at 730. took a quick bath and left. i was shivering cold for some reason. so i wore my jacket. during tuition.. my favourite seat was like blocked with other chairs so i had to sit a row infront. didn't talk to superman today. ): tuition i was half slping. took bus home alone also sia. T.T feels so weird going home alone after tuition now. haha.

came home.. ate dinner.. shoot some ball again in my garden. my percentage was like 3/10? almost sprained ankle also. like wtf.. how can i sprain my ankle in de garden? i would be so stupid la. but i almost did. -.-

thats most of the bad things today. less den an hour till today is over and everything better be normal again -.-

kns waste my effort sia. decided to buy de gift on thursday afternoon. i asked jie to lend me money on friday to get the gift. mind u.. i didn't flip a coin to decide. soo.. went to get it on friday after sch. i didn't get a small gift somemome anore. came hd even made a card with my own artistic skills. i put in effort in de card.. more effort den i did when doing art in sec1/sec2 la. knn. for wad sia.. end up argue only mah hor. a leopard cant change its spots. so what if its your birthday? u dont rule the world on the day. carrying a gift also mind. wow.. and when it was my birthday i still had to go find u cause u wanted to pass me mine. and i did.. after a tiring training. i noe u're busy today.. but ya.. anything man. after putting in effort and i cant even pass u today cause u mind carrying it.. it feels real fucked up u noe? hope to still be friends? dream on.. i dont need a fren like u. i only wan to noe and remember the you.. de you whe we were tgt. the previous you. not now you. goodbye..

2007-09-11T21:29:00.000+08:00

its been real long since i blogged. didn't have the mood to. i'm feeling that.. blogging is real useless now? haha. for wad sia. =\

EOYs are coming. such a pain.... but putting that aside now.. a greater pain would be de day 4 days from now. tmd.. should i buy something? why should i? cause you got me something? don't know if that reason is good enough. haven't i given enough in the past? what have you? zzzz...... decisions decisions. headacheee -.- haha.

nvm la. you go get from your girlfriend enough le la hor. after all...... he is the only one that give you enough mah hor. yup.

in the end.. still see my mood la. yupppppppppppp. but i don't want to waste money leh! hahaha. maybe it will be decided by flipping a coin. god knows.

hmm.. training today. was damn slack. not tiring at all but im tired. after all this... hmm.. ranting.

2007-09-02T21:04:00.000+08:00

its the holidays. apparently not much time of it is for me to relax and have fun. haha. i've gotta study finish everything that has been taught this year in about a months time. zzz.. its so boring studying..

haha. the past few days have been enjoyable i guess. i cant remember every detail but i've got a rough idea.

thursday
common test was ok. i've confidence of passing that paper. haha. lessons are something i don't have to talk bout. training after school was real fun. i had remedial before it so was late. when i came.. we started the 3on3 league. haha. my team won. but liangkai sprained his ankle quite badly i suppose. take care my boy.

friday
school ended earlier by 1hr10min? haha. got back my this term report slip. i improved a lot. from l1r5 35 drop to a 24. haha. but its still not that good. i also got another 4 demerits. so im afraid of getting cane when school reopens. zzz.. wanted to go out with my primary school mates but they were going orchard. so far. -.- so i didn't go and went to cut hair instead. came home slacked after that. went tuition and than dinner with jie. (:

yesterday
went for u16 training after being absent from it for 4 weeks. i enjoyed the training. almost dunked. (: i cant wait to do it. racing subhas to see who can dunk first. loser treat lunch. haha. lunched with the team and came home. played dota and slacked. earn a treat from ANDREA THE COWGIRL by winning her in minesweepers in msn. haha. yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeehaw!! went meet jie again to get my donuts. was late for tuition but still got my favourite seat. haha. enjoyed tuition loads. was making teachers day card for the tutor. shared my card with superman. (:

today
woke up real late. actually i woke up at 1030am but i went back slp. haha. slpt till 2pm. jie came over and studied. studied for about an hour and than watched show on the comp. so funny. haha. she left after that and i've been slacking since than.

i've got nothing to do now its sooo boring.. zzz..

going to watch the rat show tomorrow at suntec. squeak squeak (:

2007-08-28T20:13:00.000+08:00

paper 1 was okay.. but i feel i could have done better. ohhwell.. what's done is done, nothing i do to change it.

had training after examination.. i was suffering like mad in de beginning. was giddy and everything seemed to be spinning in my head. almost threw up. but as the training continued.. it felt much better and soon was ok like normal le and den started to run more. but den.. dunno why i felt so weak. i couldn't do my layup properly for some reason. shooting was also funny. oh well...

anyway.. i feel that i'm not putting enough effort in training. i shall do so from the next training onwards. regardless how tired i will be.. i will run and not slack. lol.. hopefully im true to my words this time.

improve on my 优点 and do my best to forget my 缺点. i know my 缺点.. i cant focus. its my biggest problem.. de question now.. how do i get rid of my 缺点? sighh.. i've let coach down.. my team down.. more importantly myself down. wtff sia.. wake up and focus tengrui. -.-

there's common test on thursday. fuck sia.. i never bring home my book to study. everything for me seems to be so screwed up now.. basketball, studies, family etc. think positive.. it will be alright someday.. hopefully that day comes soon. (:

2007-08-27T19:38:00.000+08:00

i think if i fail my EOYs i very well know why. haha. PSP is real addictive not my fault.

i've been spending loads of time playing my beloved psp <3 so fun. and thus i've neglected my health, studies etc. haha. ok la i've always neglected studying. haha. so doesn't make a different.

didn't go sch today due to my fucking irritating eyes. sore eyes? thats wad i call it. but i went to optician and he said that its dunno wad sig thingy.. dunno la its jus damn annoying and make me wanna rub my eye only. -.-

wonder how much i missed today in sch.. EOY is coming really really soon.. 1 month? yupp.. 1 year of studies cramped into 1 month. haha. used to it le.. zz.. i cant believe im worrying for my results o.o

ohh ya!! today i saw a real cute small boy. who was wearing the superman costume. haha. i wanted to take his picture but his parents were there so i didn't. i reminded me of someone who i didn't see on saturday. haha.

i feel that my posts are getting more random nowadays. im like struggling just to blog. haha. maybe i shall not when i do not have anything to blog bout. like how i've got nth to blog today. =\

2007-08-26T20:11:00.000+08:00

i've got sore-eyes now! must be lack of eye candy. haha. jkjk. =x

i've been slping real late recently. friday night i didn't slp.. end up slping on saturday morn 11am. haha. woke up at bout 4pm. went limeng house for 2h06 gathering. played a lot.. talked a lot? just sleep very little only. haha. slpt at bout 3+ almost 4am. woke up a lot of times before i finally got off de bed at 9 something? see thats how little i slpt. plus it was freaking cold.. and kinda uncomfortable.. ivan keep pulling de blanket cover himself leaving me with blanket only to cover half my body! irritating.. haha. but its ok. (:

came home and tried to do psp iso things agn.. still cant get games into my psp sia.. maybe i'll just go other ppl house get la. yupp. i want nba 2007 on my psp!~

slpt throughout de afternoon.. from like 3-7? still so little slp. zzz... tired...

maybe monkeyboy and drea were right... maybe i do care just that tiny little bit somewhere in my heart despite how much i complain about you. old habits die hard i guess.. by the way, you sure did look pretty yesterday. (:

2007-08-24T23:09:00.000+08:00

AHBOON TOLD ME TO WRITE HIS WEAKNESSES AND STRENGTHS HERE TOO!

okok.. here goes.. u can just go your bang your head on the wall and die =p haha. jkjk la.. i forgot how its like teaming with u le leh! 4 weeks nv go training le me x= but i noe you're very very very very very very very very very very very goooooood ok! haha.

been slping late nowadays with my new addiction. PSP ROCKS <3 im going play again later. Tales of The World.. real fun game. (:

okok.. jus here to crap rubbish.. cyaaaaa~

2007-08-21T20:55:00.000+08:00

juniors lost to cat high yesterday. haha. they totally wasted it. they should have won. jia you small boys~

today school was boring.. like duh? haha. didn't do anything after school.. played basketball wid the juniors. i hate long pants cause its so uncomfortable and disgusting when one is sweating like mad. haha. speaking of basketball.. i learnt to spin and "kill" ppl le.. lol.. elbows thrown at ppl sure hurt alot.. haha.

i wanted to have a post to my team.. yupp.. and here it is.

to our dear captain, liangkai: improve your dribbling and yeehaw liao. u can shoot u can qie u can fight for the ball.. just lack this one "weapon" can le. and perhaps like make passes immediately when see someone running to open spaces. our team de shooting is steady de dun worry. (:

to our siaokia chiongster, kenneth: your nuclear bomb is really really steady.. but sometimes when u see no one running.. dun 1 person go qie all 5. next year 'b' div le. no more small boys to push around. when no one running.. jus keep reminding. dun ying ying lai. and your shooting.. its better compared to last time now.. keep it up and improve more. your "homing missle" developing not bad.

to our playmaker, yicheng: you definately shoot better than u qie. next year.. almost everyone is bigger size den you.. so dun anyhow qie. do so only when its real real real open. den when dribbling up court. dun afraid of the defender. gan gan lai. give him a elbow or two if needed. den same as liangkai.. when see person running to open space le pass immediately. den when pass like that dun always use lob. lob slower.

to our slowcooker, hongkai: yes you've improved, but you're doing it too slowly. your noodles cooking to slow le. u using cold water cook isit? work harder and put in more effort. you can do it de. dun care when we laugh at u when u make shots that were supposingly impossible for you. we're jus not used to it. so jus keep doing it and it wont be weird for us to see u score those kind of balls. and rmb boxout, bend your knees and put in more effort in basketball den u do in soccer.

to our mean machine that weighs only 60kg++ , ben: hurry build up. we've all heard how much u wan to put in effort to build up and get bigger size. actions speak louder than words. jia you jia you! you got the moves but dun have de size and guts. when inside taking ppl 1on1. gan gan shang. your ball are kinda hard to block. even if manage to it would most probably be a foul. so dun dodge de person. but of course dun do so when u have better options like passing out. remember to boxout to when getting rebounds.

to brownboy, jasper: you improved loads. i think most in the whole team. keep it up. do more shooting. you're also another accurate fuck in de team. haha. hmm.. wad else? hmm.. react in the game faster? sometimes you're kinda slow. thats wad i feel. yupp. and dun be afraid to make passes, even if the pass is difficult to reach the destination. have confidence in yourself. i trust you to be able to make de pass. so jus do it. the team definately trusts u too. we're a TEAM after all.

to our perverted mouse, edmund: dun always tink you're lousy. dun give up. everyone has a chance of entering the team. you're not lousy.. u jus need to control yourself in de game. dun force your shots and dun make reckless passes. and dun qie to shang lan when u see a giant inside. giant being someone who is like around liangkai's size? not saying liangkai is very big but you're smaller sized. no offence but i feel the truth should be told to teammates. it wont do good lying. jus remember no one is lousy in the team. and remember.. hongkai was lousy.. he didn't give up and he's improving.

to our macho, cheongheng: well.. its rather de same for edmund. dun give up and just put in effort to improve as much as u can. dun always so ying ying lai inside and force de shot. pass more also. and jus jiayou~

to me myself.. well.. i know my problems i guess. yupp.. zhuan xin da qiu. bu yao xiang tai duo and zuo tai duo. pass more and bo wo my ball when i qie in. yupp.. hopefully thats all? any suggestions how to improbe please tell me my teammates (: you all point of view of me compared to my point of view of me is obviously better for my improvement.

okok i killed loads of time blogging today. haha. waiting for my psp to be ready den go collect maybe? or perhaps i'll jus take it in school tml. (:

heartbroke, shi lian zhe, aka me? hahaha! =x

2007-08-19T19:44:00.000+08:00

its been... hmm.. tiring for the past few days. its been either gym or basketball and late nights. yupp.. little little bit of study only.

EOY is jus around the corner~ study ppl! tengrui is studying, so should u. (:

i decided to clear my shelf yesterday. acty more of tidy it up. and i found some letters. i read all of them again. they are all nice and touching. 3 made me think of stuff i swore to forget. apparently i've wasted my effort as i was reminded last night. haha. thats saddd. o.o

wooots.. my parents most probably going out of country next week. party anyone? xD

2007-08-15T20:38:00.000+08:00

school today.. started off with.. Amath test. its like omfg. i see already know i will fail. haha. i did my best. should be can get 8 or 9 over 20 bah. pass means got super luck and bonus. haha. physics lesson after that. its officially my favourite lesson now. mrs tan has obviously given up all hopes on me. haha. im not exactly proud of that by its so much better without her caring so much. yupp. after that Amaths agn.

recess! bought a drink from the vending machine and played ball. shen qian da ji hua! SHEN SHEN SHEN~

PE. mr chua isn't in country so mr chai took over. it was like wtf. yupp.. did pull-ups den ran 6 rounds of the field. could do anything we wanted after that. today was de worse PE lesson i ever had. -.-

went back to class all stinky and dirty. had english lit. literature was always a lesson that put me to slp easily. i struggled real hard to stay awake. haha. history lesson followed. i was super tired. jasper was slping beside me. i stayed awake paying attention in class somehow. haha. den it was chinese test agn. tot i would fail for sure. but it didn't turn out too bad.

recess agn! this time ate alot. all meat.

went back to class for supposed-to-be english lesson. mrs lai didn't come as she was doing de oral examinations for the sec4s. we all cheered when relief teacher came in to let us noe she aint coming in. haha.

assembly before school end. was kinda boring. but we could laugh alot.. but it was at things that weren't related to assembly. haha. i shalln't be so bad to say like that la.. err.. good effort to the classes that performed show-and-tell today. haha.

fuck i jus killed a bug on my shirt. the shirt im wearing now.. like wtf.. i see the blood. zz.. change later.

after school i spent it at the stadium. played bball & tabletennis with jie. after that crapped alot with powerpuff and jie. so fun. haha. went 85 to eat after that and den i came home. im really tired now.. zzzzzz.. lack of slp already me. haha.

there's still Emath test tml. zzzzzz.......... test test test. nahbei... screw tests -.-

OHYA! and one more thing. from today onwards i officially agree with pamela that she wakes up at 530am instead of 5am to do her hair. haha. i've gotten bored making fun of her le =p

2007-08-14T19:44:00.000+08:00

its gonna be exams really really soon. i've got to study 1 year worth of things in a few weeks. haha. wake up tengrui work hardd~

this is my 100th post by the way.

yicheng has a really cool post at his blog about the team. very funny and at the same time makes sense. haha. jia you to the team~

i actually wanted to post something bout the team tonight.. but im kinda lazy now and tired. zzz.. did gym after school. i focused on my arms mainly and it feels very suan now. had chinese test and chemistry test today. jasper saved my ass for chinese. chemistry was easy. (:

there's still another chinese test tml. also got Amath test tml... zzz.. there's Emath on thursday and english lit on friday. so many tests... stupid school.. our EOYs coming already still test so much. there's already enought stress and pressure thankyou.

haha. something really amusing happened today..

*leeying walks into 3F*
leeying: 3F please go to lab!
3F: go which lab?
leeying: the don't know which teacher tell me to tell de.
3F: which lab?
leeying: err.. which lab ah... COMP LAP!

lol.. duh obviously comp lab but which? haha. found it ourselves in the end.

2007-08-12T21:00:00.000+08:00

SHORT HAIR IS FUCKED UP. T.T

just cut my hair today.... zzz.. obviously i miss my hair already. hahaha. i always complain after i cut de. =\

this year.. only 3 people have ever cut my hair.
1) Ah Wei, my hairstylist who has moved to centrepoint ><
2) Mr Chua, but he seems to have given up catching my hair length.
3) Leon, the person who cut my hair today.

i prefer ahwei still.. irritating.. centrepoint so far! >< kaooo. haha.

today was a really boring day.. my dad's birthday thats why. zzz. haha. okok.. i jus wan come here complain bout my hair nia.

OHYA! the good thing bout my hair length is that.... I DUN NEED TO WAKE UP AT 5 TO TIE MY HAIR UNLIKE SOMEONE. =p

2007-08-11T16:48:00.000+08:00

i slept at like 3am last night. woke up early to go for training in school. played like some loser. nahbei. -.-

hate playing like crap. but why is it i just cant focus my bloody mind when i play ball? why is it that my shots don't get in like how it does when it ain't training or a match? more importantly.. how do i resolve this problem of mine which is really really screwing me up like mad.

zzz..

im so tired now and my hate hurts like mad.. splitting headache. wan to slp but cant fall aslp. sighhhhh...... depresssssion! there's tuition later at 730pm. i tink i will fall aslp during de lesson. but than the plus side is well...... her?

how is it possible to be so crazy over someone you barely know. why am i so attracted to you? can you stop doing that? haha. =x

tml is 12th august. is the birth date of a bloody fucker. my father. -.- sooooo...... what should i get him? kenneth suggested "song zhong".

2007-08-10T11:31:00.000+08:00

of all de ppl i noe.. im like de least fortunate one who doesn't have a place to call home or a group of ppl to call family. perhaps thats de greatest misery of my life?

went suntec for CIP yesterday. practically wasted the whole day there as it was 9am-6pm. only some matches were nice to watch. carried things around and played de arcade there. for free somemore. haha. went to buy donuts. (: it sure is nicer when it is eaten there on the spot.

after CIP everyone went home la. hongkai left the earlist. followed by yicheng and edmund. jasper and liangkai got money missing. den also go home after that. kenneth also. like wtf sia all pangseh. tot we all shuo hao after CIP go walk around? zz.. all go home. good for u guys. leave me alone. zz..

life is getting kinda pathetic for me? lol.. i've got no one i can rely on 24/7. not my frens, not my 'family'. everyone else is so fortunate. everyone else which excludes me. o.o

so went simei eat my dinner.. after which stone until 8+ before going 'home'. how boring can tat be man.. zzz.

lets see.. so wad are my options to do today? apparently rot alone agn i suppose? who will come and save me sia.. superman? ):

2007-08-08T20:46:00.000+08:00

school was a total waste of time. im definately not going for the ndp celebration in sch next year.

first we had to sit under de stupid hot sun for like.. 1 hour +++ ? dunnno.. got de heat still ok. shangbo made it worse.. he sat in front of me. kao.. his BO i really buay tahan. nahhh bei. si bei chaoooooo!

de most boring part was de marching part sia.. we sit there see ppl march and hear de guy shout shout shout dunno wad commands. den gotta wait for the stupid guest-of-honour go inspect. make de poor students sit under de sun. haha. ok maybe im de only wan complaining bout the sun.

performance but ncc. i was like... " they practise so long only like that?! " =x i noe i cant do better. haha.

after that sang songs.. de best part is shouting "cheong heng". haha. went to class room for dunno wad tree planting thingy for dunno wad stupid thing also. waste time only.. okok.. im complaining alot today.

after sch went crossfire. apparently it was full so we left. ian came over to my house. slacked around and i fell aslp. bout 150 we left for his place to swim and enjoy de jacuzzi. omg it rocks man. im going to make an effort to get my ass there at least once a week? haha.

went limeng's house after that. enjoyed eating lays, french fries and ben&jerries while watching a wnba match. haha. after that i slpt... for like 1 hour plus? woke up at 6+ near 7. watched tv awhile and we left. limeng, yicheng and liangkai were going crossfire to meet the rest while i came home.

haha. thats all bout today. cyaaaa~

ohh ya! im obsessed (:

2007-08-07T20:37:00.000+08:00

i hate losing.. badly. _|_

jus came home from balling at yicheng's house. present there were.. me, jasper, liangkai, yicheng, edmund, ben, cheongheng & jasper's bro.

before edmund and ben came.. we played 3v3. me, jasper and liangkai against yicheng, edmund and jasper's bro. start like 5 mins or so jasper's bro sprain ankle. he stepped on my shoe when he jump and....

"AHHH! damn pain."

im so sorry...

after that ben and edmund came.. so we played 4v3. nothing nice to talk about it. jus that we played 4 times all same team and i lost all 4. -.- fucked up sia.. my team was de one wid more some more.. kaoo.

i hate losing. _|_

WAHAHA!

2007-08-06T02:01:00.000+08:00

ohkay, this is seriously retarded.. LOL/
i think i will get killed when he sees this xD xD
heyyo loh teng rui!
i shall help ya blog something now..? just finish learning ting xie for later, and got nothing much to do. lol/

firstly, "ALL HAIL THE JAPANESE GURL!!"
:D :D WW3 is coming..
uhh, thankyou for wishing hapy birthday an hour plus ago..

hmm. teng rui = naughty boy..
can't think of much positive stuff to say now xD xD
lol/ he's a black men magnet..? always got alot of run-ins with those indian/malay people o.O uhh is that a bad omen? :O :O lol/

aiya i'm crapping here la..! Zzz
shall not waste time le.. finally helped ya blogged something like 2 weeks after ya asked me help update? LOL/

ohkay, that's all.
:D :D

2007-08-05T14:53:00.000+08:00

yesterday was a really tiring day so i didn't update.

had 2.4km run at east coast park in de morn. i was late meeting ian, robert and edmund. lol. i overslpt. so they waited for like 30mins and miss-called me 10 times but i was still slping like a pig. x= they left first. when i woke up they were already at east coast park. i bathed and everything and rushed to get a cab and chiong to east coast park. wasted 7 bucks sia. zz.. haha.

de run was ok. at the starting line.. we were all like shouting 'cheongheng'. haha. it lightened up de spirit of most ppl i guess. haha. so anyways.. after failing 2.4km for 2 years straight. haha. i got 8th in my lvl. de run didn't feel very long.. bout 8mins-9mins? should be la. but below 10min can already. haha. cause coach said that for every 10 sec above 10mins we must run 1 round of de stadium steps. >< after that we walked over to burger king for breakfast. ate with de juniors and all. at first liangkai, kenneth and i decided to go u16 training. but end up found out coach wan us play match with de juniors so we changed out minds. haha. so eat le cab to sch played match. i played badly as usual.

we played with de juniors and with weixiong and his friends. apparently we kana owned? sort of la. coach was obviously not happy by de way we played. de team needs to be more accurate, needs more stamina, more agreesive defence and perhaps de right will, confidence and determination. hope we can make it. i really wanna win next year.

went crossfire with yicheng, kenneth, samuel, khanliang, bala & kelyn. haha. spent 3 bucks there. after which we went eat prata and i took bus home with samuel. came home played more dota and left for tuition around 7.

was learning dunno wad total internal relection thingy. quite confusing. zz.. haha. and tuition was really lonely for me without superman. =x

came home to play more dota agn and waited for superman's smses. i got neglected! T.T lol. ohhhhh well........ haha. you're forgiven. (:

as for today.. i've been spending it so far by reading harry potter. im a real slower reader i guess. haha. seldom hear of me reading ya? ^^ shall go do hw now..

byeeeeeeeee~

2007-08-03T21:18:00.000+08:00

today was a real eventful day. alot of unexpected things. haha.

soo.. i met superman and passed the gift i bought ytd. xD i noe im early but i cant meet u tml! cause u're soo busy. haha. busy saving de world o.o haha.

it first started off with going to 3e to witness a certain someone getting canned. my whole chinese class boys had to go over to watch as it served as a "warning" to us. haha. im 1 demerit away from caning. hope my ass will never need to feel mr chua's cane. im trying my best to stay out of trouble now. im not gonna be like how i was last time ever agn! (:

the rest of sch was kinda boring. soo.. skip skip skip. we ended school and had to go take de elect humanities common test. it was only for elect history and elect geography. im a history student. anyway.. de teacher my class got at first was like wtf la. she totally sucks. de classes allocated was kinda screwed up. and den she was like "monitor go check with mr yeow. i just came up from staff room 5 mins ago so why should i go down agn." seriously wtf. she's de teacher la. -.-

okok. i tink i hmm.. cant make it for that paper. haha. anyway.. i chionged down to stadium after it. we were supposed to play a match against de shanghai visitors in de sch. but apparently.. de match was played by de juniors instead. so we self trained. it was very fun playing de 4v4 and 3v3 match. my shots were totally off at first. all my points came from shooting except 1 qie de and 2 great passes by yicheng. (:

oh ya! i would like to have this special part to talk about hongkai! i noe u will never see it but.. its good that u improved! keep it up dude. remember all de things i told u today. keep those in mind it is really important for u now. go cook your "kuai shu mian" with jiahong! jia you!

okok.. after playing finish.. i went to play tabletennis with jie for awhile. after that went do shooting wid jasper. 2 ppl run and shoot 50 balls add up. i tink we did it in less den 8 mins? yupp not bad not bad. but we still can do better. after that i went to de other court to do my own shooting. shot free throws first. 43/50 (: i want better. den did 2 point shooting. must score 5 in a row to clear de areas --- baseline, 45 degree, middle, 45 degree den baseline agn. after which did 3 in a row for 3pt shots. felt like it was good practise.

okok. den de thing that spoil the whole day. while i was shooting. this black guy came in to de stadium. he should be malay bah. he had golden hair and was wearing a red/white/black top. dunno wad shit. liangkai saw him also.

as told by liangkai: " i saw him sit down near our bags and den he left"

apparently he stole jasper's handphone, ezlink and money. ben's phone was missing too. we were like wtf. so we told heshen. he said go tell de security guard and general office. as we walked out of de stadium... we asked the softball girls if they saw the person. apparently 1 of them had her handphone and wallet stolen too.

so de guards say nv see him. i went to retell de incident at the general office. after which we were asked to search de sch to see if he still around while de office try to find out how to use de cctv as de guy in charge of it has already left. while searching we asked around if anyone else saw de guy. some did. and guess wad. uniform group de ppl also had things missing. their bags are put tgt de but apparently the thief even took the bag and chucked it at the dustbin there la. -.- he the zaikia of the year already. haha.

so soon after.. we could view the cctv. i always tot that the cameras in de sch were useless.. but apparently i've been proven wrong. haha. its kinda cool rewinding and forwarding de thing. de guy was caught on camera but we couldn't make de face out clearly. we tried different cameras. still looking if any other camera can catch his bloody fuck face clearly. yup.

so the whole thing will continue on monday. i pity those who had valuables missing.

okok.. so tml is gonna be another busy day. 2.4km in de morn at eastcoast park. im gonna make it below 10mins. den u16 training after that. have not been going there for 2 weeks. kinda miss de court there. haha. afternoon im quite free until 730. got tuition. zzz. oh ya! i didn't go tuition today. x=

okok im off to dota. so.. hmm.. hope i dun meet any malay bnet players. haha. if not..... hor hor hor. (:

i hope you're the right one. please be it. (:

2007-08-01T20:37:00.000+08:00

to my dear superman!

you always so tired sleep earlier la. yupp! but u slp early i nth to do leh! haha. okok.. since u always so tired.. take care la. tired easier to fall sick. yupp. i think so only. haha. ^^

2007-08-01T20:16:00.000+08:00

today was a so so day.

there's only 2 things worth blogging about.
1) i did 9 pull ups XD
2) i shouted at mrs tan

nothing much i can talk about the pull ups so that leaves me with retelling my story of shouting at mrs tan! haha.

de feeling of shouting at her rocks man. i really dislike her so. thats why i go tuition.. which i enjoy at least 10x more. it was about me getting out of physics remedial. i made a deal with her. about 1 month back we agreed that if i get above 60% for the common test i would be free from remedial. apparently last week on the common test day she told me 70% instead and i was already like wtf. haha. den so today she gave de papers back. i got 16/25 which is 64% la. i went to ask her. and apparently she still refused and gave me some bullshit that she was in a rush de other day thats why agree 60%. den of course i complain la cause they other day i didn't say anything back to her. soooo.. the conversation:

mrs tan: tengrui ah.. you really are the worst student i've met.
me: well.. you're de worst teacher i've met too.
*mrs tan nags a little. i cant rmb wad she said.*
*i argue back also la but she keep refusing*
*den she walked away*
me: mrs tan wait.. i want to thank you for helping me get 64% for my common test.
mrs tan: yaa..
*but before she could finish*
me: but it isn't because of your teaching but de motivation u gave me to get out of remedial cause i really hate you so.
*she was really dulan by den and she walked away*

i muttled "cheebye" as she left but it wasn't for her to hear. but from wad others told me. i said it quite loud and she might have heard it. haha. ooopss. my temper really got the better of me today. =x

anyways.. theres common test tml. social studies. zzz.. studying a little later. no confidence for it at all. how how how? will my superman come and save me? xD

2007-07-31T18:40:00.000+08:00

i cant believed i waste the whole day. spent de whole day after i reach home in front of the comp. played dota & listen music. watch 1 episode of 18 jing bu jing on the computer. funny as always. i acty spent the whole afternoon waiting for a sms agn. wow.. i should really stop doing this kind of things ya? maybe..... =\

off to shoot ball awhile in my garden. cyaa~

2007-07-31T13:36:00.000+08:00

this is the 6th post for this month. lol. kinda pathetic ya? changed blogskin agn. its still plain and simple aint it?

left school early today as i wasn't feeling well. think im falling sick. but i dun think today was so serious until need to go home. the lessons were boring thats why i requested to come home. aint i such a slacker? xD

anyway.. this blog shall live~

2007-07-28T16:30:00.000+08:00

time is precious and shouldn't be wasted. therefore i conclude, i shouldn't waste my time on thinking about the past and just don't give a fuck about it. it ain't worth it anymore..

i realise now that i wasn't being a nice guy for taking all the blame but it was you who couldn't care less and let me do so.

okok stop stop stop. time wasting.

i've got so much to do.. i've gotta study for monday's chemistry test, thursday's social studies test and friday's history test. thats alot of facts to remember. sure fail.. at this rate it wont come as a surprise if i retain or whatever.

even basketball.. zzz. today had training and i played like shit once agn. when will i ever be able to perform up to standard?? i want to win next year i really do.. but why can't i just wake up and play proper basketball like how i use to do? coaches predict a good future in basketball for me.. are they wrong? maybe.. well.. thats for me to worry about in future. what's more important now is just waking up first and bring back my game.

now.. this is thinking about things that don't waste my time. ^^

2007-07-26T19:56:00.000+08:00

firstly.. i would like to say well done juniors. congrates on becoming eastzone champs in 'c' div. (:

the guys match was real close. de girls match outcome was really unexpected. seriously i tot the girls would lose but i was proven wrong. haha. well done.

school is boring as usual. but not exactly a total waste of time la yup. im getting real pissed of by ms khoo now. zzz.. i didn't even noe i got ss remedial la till last week friday. den today got finals den i got excuse letter. den still sms my mom complain. knn.. my mom threatens to ban me. o.o

YOU DARE BAN ME, YOU CAN FORGET BOUT CALLING ME YOUR SON.

wad a bitch. -.- both ms khoo and my parents. zz..

den somemore why so late tell me? if i 1st lesson already nv go tell me la. wtf. and parents/teachers say that im not responsible like wth. ok la its my fault i dunno but its ms khoo's fault that i only knew bout it last week.

okok.. shall stop cursing. try to.. cause i feel like i got alot alot alot of things i wanna say out now. haha. and of course most of them piss me off.

okok.. anyways.. yesterday night had a match with some hongkong ppl. i was nearly late. haha. anyway... we only won by 2 points like wtf. lol. 60-58. they are younger den us some more and aren't that good. we underperformed like fuck and had wayyy too many turnovers. nevermind.. about 4-5 more months to prepare.

but 1 thing i would like to comment on was that we didn't give up thats good. one of the rare times we fought to the end to win. (:

okok.. guess thats all i've gotta say. but wait.. there's more.

you're the most ungrateful, unappreciative person i've ever met in my short 15 years of living. i realized today while watching the tournament today that you were not as ungrateful and unappreciative as i thought you were. you are worse than that. which is the most. in the past.. after i had done so much for you, i feel that its a complete fucking waste of time now. i could have done so much more within that 1 year. what has he done that i haven't? i really don't know why i'm thinking about all this stuff now but ya.. i swear. its the last time i'm ever gonna think bout this matter. its history. no one can change history.

2007-07-21T23:07:00.000+08:00

不是我的错
我们都听过
完美的时候要更多
找这时候说的太多
有时候的我
只想和你一样沉默
不想单单罗罗嗦嗦
水也灭不掉的火...

也许大男人真的很男人
少了点风度还是不承认
有时候错的并不知道错的
不想借口只是直接一天说
有时候女孩没那么小孩
心里的无奈也需要点关怀
遗憾的遗留变成勉强了
怎么能重新再来
Yea~~~

2007-07-17T12:29:00.000+08:00

i shall not let this blog go to waste. yupp. so i shall try to update as often as possible.

and now.. i got like the whole day to blog? haha. im at home. never go school. mind you.. i didn't pon ok? ^^

recently i've been more prone to injury den usual. haha. it started from last friday when playing bball at yicheng's house. i injured my thumb quite badly. hongkai stepped on it when i fell onto the floor. jam until very bad. first time i cried when i got injured. haha.

den ytd is de killer one. haha. i almost sprained ankle cause jasper and i try get rebound den he press until my ankle. yup. nearly sprain. heng sia nv. den also when yicheng make a freaking hard pass to jasper's bro.. jasper's bro didn't catch de ball and de fucking ball hit my face. haha. den my lips were bleeding. so my jersey was kinda bloody.

de more servere de is de elbow from liangkai to the middle of my chest. i aint in sch cause of that. it hurts when i breathe lar. even worse when i cough. haha. went to doc jus now and he said that nothing very serious. no ribs broken or anything. just that de impact was really great and im suffering from de after-effect.

my list of injuries have gotten longer agn. zzz. haha.

2007-07-15T02:32:00.000+08:00

my last post was on 4th july. its been nearly 2 weeks since i blogged.

didn't have de inspiration to do so. yup.. plus was real lazy. now im jus bored so thats why im here. notice de time. its a ridiculous time to blog. haha. ^^

chionging dota agn. its been a long time since i chiong dota. its been even longer since i went lan. haha. no one seems to be interested in lan anymore. just pokemon. haha.

dunno why i dun have de mood to blog even when im so bored now. zzz.......

2007-07-04T21:12:00.000+08:00

just the other day i was in town buying off center book.. was at takashimaya that japanese book store. its de only place which is selling this book now. zzz..

okok.. anyway.. at orchard mrt station. this guy came up to me. he was trying to sell me a pen. it was for 2 bucks and de money was some fund. it was a fund for exconvicts. and de person trying to sell me de pen was one too.. lol. and i refused to buy. and this is wad he told me.......

"zi ji ren bang mang yi xia leh"

lol.. i was like "HUH?" den i walked off. haha. i feel bad. but den ya.. i aint an exconvict man. ><

okok.. so its wednesday already for this week of sch. de only thing i wan to comment about in sch is shangbo. LOL. now tink of his name agn.. damnnn funnnnny. haha. okok.. de stories goes..

yesterday
during recess in school.. he wasn't in class and we were. den ben came up to me and said, "my guts tell me that there are cigratte sticks in shangbo's bag" haha. and my immediate response was going to check. haha. apparently i wasn't the only one. haha. quite a lot ppl came.. i tink was me, ben, daryl, kenneth. i only can remember this few. haha. ben took a picture of it. shangbo knew bout it and den ben deleted de pictures. but somehow made shangbo break de sticks? got right not sure someone told me. haha. anyway.. shangbo is such a loser la. cause of all de ppl he went to find "trouble" with was nicholas.. who is de weakest amongst us all. no offence dude. but it didnt have anything to do with nicholas. how loser can shangbo be man -.- haha.. okok.. after recess we were going to de comp lab for err... SEL. yupp. apparently shangbo was crying. like omg? haha. loser.

today
he came sch wid his err dunno which arm bandaged! haha. damn funny. he say last night 2am gang fight at hougang. lol! somemore he use knuckles de guy use pen knife! haha. damn stupid den say he got cut. okok.. main pt.. first of all.. if it was really cut by a pen knife.. it wont be jus his arm only. next he bandaged one long row on de arm. acty was more of like put cotton and tape over. how stupid can he be.. de cut so long obviously is wrap le right? and must have stitches liao. wad a loser. dun even noe how to bluff. my 2nd pt. if was in a fight.. how come he still alive? haha. wont he have died. he so noob so loser. die also maybe better for him sia. =x okok.. den i heard that today.. walking in de corridor that time.. he suddenly jus kick valentino. haha. den of course valentiono retaliated la. haha. shangbo got owned man. haha. sad i wasn't there to see. i was busy slping in class. haha. even sadder, someone broke de fight up. haha.

conclusion
shangbo sucks. its such a misfortune to even know him. loser.. -.-

okok so anyways.. enough of that useless idiot. waste my blog space? zz. and time typing out so long. haha. today went play bball after school cause someone pangseh me. identity of de person shall be kept unknown. xD haha. today we had special guest appearence. HO HONG KAI joined us today for bball. haha. its been ages since i saw him play bball. not bad not bad. keep it up dude. im really glad to see u in the court today. u maybe still got enough time to make up for lost time. and of course.. put in effort and u will be able to remain your position in de team next yr. jia you. (:

had lost of fun playing.. was quite.. hmm.. ok la my form and everything. yupp. i should keep that up to. ^^

i've learned to focus more finally ^^

2007-07-02T00:27:00.000+08:00

i told this to ivan just, "it feels like my lan got chop off. thats how serious the matter is to me."

lol.. thats de funniest way i could put it to him.

well.. indeed something happened. but obviously not to my balls. o.o something that hurts as much or possibly more. im trying to sound as cheerful now as possible. oh well.. in my short 15 years of living.. this aint the first time i've felt this way ya? in this life of mine.. there's nth i can rely on.. no parents no family.. i know my frens are there but i noe not many are there to listen to my long long possibly boring-to-them stories. but i noe my friends are there. yup..

but still.. i cant bring myself to forget about it. i guess i expected it to be this way ya. i've gotten used to hurt and disappointment. but than this question rings in my head.. why? perhaps its something i'll never noe.

hmm.. conclusion to it all.. the truth hurts. sometimes alot sometimes alittle. but someway or another it will hurt. and apparently.. its hurting me like fuck now.. sigh..

off to play dota to clear my mind hopefully and distract myself from thinking bout it.

so long as you're happy girl~

2007-06-29T21:12:00.000+08:00

fucked up sia.. looking on the bright side now. lucky de day is about to end and it cant get worse. zzzzz.

my story for today! all started from last night. just before going to bed... smsing and apparently i also dunno why im so foolish to wait for a reply i noe wont come. how saddening right?? slpt quite late.

den wake up.. i was like fucking late. i was suppose to meet ian at 645. however that was the time i woke up. so i rushed and everything and when i got in de cab to pick ian up i was like falling aslp already. zzz.. den slpt and dunno why de fucking hell i nv check if my phone still with me. nahhbei.. zz.

i called my phone like dunno how many times la.. comfirm more den 20. apparently de fucking driver refuses to pick up my phone. den..... yeehaw liao. i call my dad tell him my phone lost den he scold scold scold like some mad bastard. wait he is. zzz..

sch lessons were ok today. just that i was damn hungry. we had 3 periods before recess and after that 6 in a row nonstop. -.- like what kind of stupid timetable is this. put de recess so early. put later by 1 hour bu shi hao le lor.. zzz..

after sch went eat at 85 and den i came home bathe change and left not long after. went yicheng's house there play bball. apparently.. some useless "captain" of the team nv come once agn. cause ytd he, de bball "captain" went to play soccer. like wtf ya? and he already is de lousiest in the team and is like already having a damn high chance of not entering team next year. wake up la hongkai. -.- as in seriously.

while playing ball.. i tink today play so many matches only win like... 1? zzz.. quite off-form overall. seriously i still aint up to standard. or am i putting too much pressure on myself? oh well..... zzzz. almost sprained ankle today while playing too.. lol. injuries.. used to it i guess. haha.

played ball till it started raining.. it was about.. hmm.. 650? yupp.. went eat afterwards and i decided to cab home. apparently i waited in de rain for a fucking cab for 20 minutes over. zzz.. yicheng and ben waited also cause i was going to drop ben off somewhere and yicheng had nothing to do. sry for wasting both of u guys time. lol. i ended up taking bus home. zzz. wasted so much time. den reach home so late very wet and sort of freezing.

oh ya at the roadside while waiting for cab, i got splashed by de car with water 2 times. like wtf right? de first time i was like pointing at the muddle already and telling yicheng and ben if someone tio surely damn suay. and not even 3 seconds later i tio. like wtf. zzz.. den we moved away from de puddles. den apparently suay suay another car come.. den splash de water very far until tio me agn. nahhbeii _|_

so took bus in the end. while walking up de steps. almost fall down also. zzz. got stupid snails. den i almost step on 1 and lost balance cause i avoided it. de floor was wet too and everything.. zzz. reach home.. face music from my father.. zzz.. sick of it. also not i wan to lose my phone de mah kaobei so much. zzz.

such an unlucky day dun u tink?? ):

if only.....

2007-06-26T17:52:00.001+08:00

haha. its been ages since i've been here posting. finally aint lazy and got the time. yupp.. sch has reopened already and its well... more boring? cause the days are longer. haha. so far nth much to say here.. haha. so i shall post pictures. yupp. enjoy~ (:

oh ya!! cause sch reopen.. den cut hair. zzz.. kns damn short. haha. i miss my long sideburn? ):

aint liangkai's dog toffee cuteee? (:
haha. i still love my dog more. <3

here are my japan trip photos. i only post de nice ones. haha. dun wan to hmm.. throw face? haha. (:

2007-06-22T13:43:00.000+08:00

i've not been able to blog for the past few days cause i was... hmm.. not free. and lazy when i'm free. and de fact my brother from ns asthma attack den come back. den i let him use comp. lol.

past few days have been kinda wild. slpt for... 11 hours in 3 nights. which also means 4 days la. and because of this.. my body clock is very screwed and couldn't remember when was when. haha.

i think... it started from tuesday night. me and ivan chiong bnet whole night. yeehaw damn fun. haha. i tink me and him plus his friends didn't lose a game at all. den met him at 630 in the morn go simpang eat breakfast before me going my phy bridging class thingy. den on that night i went class outing wid jasper, ben, edmund kenneth. honestly.. it was kinda pathetic.

den went home from there. my friends came stayover. jasper, ben, yicheng, ian, ivan, cheongheng, liangkai came. even limeng came like omfg? lol. he came at 1am and treated everyone egg prata. yeehaw so shiok. thks monkey.

i fell aslp quite early. bout.. 3 or 4? woke up at 8 and rushed to sch. sort of la. had to go sch for the juniors friendly match. be officials. de game was damn nice but sadly we lost. haha. after that me, jasper and ben went vjc tgt. cabbed there. for the chemistry week thingy. quite ok la. edmund was lost and came rather late.

after that went hmmm... bedok interchange eat lunch and den went sikaige's house to swim. haha. me and ben borrowed fbt shorts from graci and became real sexy netballers? o.o lol. after that we went marina bay for steamboat dinner agn. like i went there 2 nights in a row? haha. it was like a million times better than de first night. after that came home.

slpt at around 1+ and i woke up at 8 today to make my way to meet jasper, ben, yicheng, cheongheng play bball. apparently ben didn't show up. lol. was kinda fun. but damn tiring. im like gonna fall aslp any moment now. haha. yawwwnn.

i jus did finish de math tests thingy and well.. anyhow do de. haha. took less den 1 min per paper. there were 3. later making my way to tuition centre for amath. siannnn dun feel like going. zzz. den after which at night playing bball agn. haha. aint this madness? zz..

i can't stop myself from caring. why? ):

2007-06-19T23:35:00.000+08:00

JAY CHOU ROCKS. I'm here because i need something to relief stress from Biology and blogging's the key! (: I love blogging whaha. Uh, HELLO TENG RUI. I miss Lessie alot man. I should start planning when to visit her again. :D

School's starting in 6days time! *shivers* Must study hard alright. Even if you don't, maybe you'll get to skip the End-of-year exams like how you skipped the Mid-years lah. x) Hmm, you just told me that i have to write a 1000 word essay. OK, I CAN DO IT. =P Eh, i got biology remedial tomorrow. Aww, you have a Physics test. All the best okay! Top the class or something. LOL, okay, A1 can already. :D

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周杰伦~退后

天空灰的像哭过
离开你以后
并没有更自由
山上的空气
嗅出我们的距离
一幕觉醒的结局
像呼吸般无法停息

抽屉泛黄的日记
榨干了回忆
那笑容是傻气
你我的过去
悲伤是真的忘记
却让往后的爱情
粗心的眼泪是多余

我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给了承诺
却被时间扑了空
我知道我们都没有错
只是放手未必就好过
最美的爱情回忆里待续

I love this song! And it's JAY CHOU'S. (:

Hurhur, 1000 words already right? Yay, i played cheat. :D Okay, i really mustmustmust do Biology already! Will blog when i'm free-er. (See first=P)

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2007-06-16T14:35:00.000+08:00

fuck sia. why de rain lighten when i reach home?? ><

yesterday
i cant really recall what happened. haha. lemme think... i woke up at 9+ before 9.22am cause my comp was on since then. haha. played dota on bnet. until like hmm.. 12+? yupp. denise and yantze came over to visit me/lessie. obviously more of me hor. haha. for pictures.. go to denise's blog! after that hmm.. played dota agn until dunno wad time and attempted to do chemistry. apparently.. not successful? =x oh ya! i went tuition at 530 also.

today
went u16 training in the morning. some stupid retard pangseh me!! haha. i shall keep de name confidential. haha. clara u know who im saying hor. hahaha. =x ooops? hmm.. met anying at aljunied mac. it was raining then too so i took a cab over from simei instead of train.

training was ok i guess. so far the most tiring u16 training we have had i suppose =\ alot of ppl nv come sia. all de pon kia. only 10-1 players were there. ah le is de -1 cause he only go there sit. he got stitches on his eye lid there. too qian da already tio bian. haha.

we played 5v5 during the last 15mins. assistant coach joined de team wid 4 players. lol. i kena and1 by him sia. zzz.. he can pass very well but i feel most of the passes very risky. =\

went the market eat after that. ate err... dunno all de meat organ de soup thingy with rice. after that took mrt wid liangkai. he dropped at tenah merah and obviously me at simei. he was going de church thingy. all my ahs teammates were. zzz.. left out T.T haha. met someone really unexpected at the simei platform.

i went eastpoint after a short chat. yup. bought a book for my dad for father's day. i noe if i dun buy surely kena kp like mad so better buy la hor. haha. wanted to look for a book on how to be a good father. haha. instead i settled for a book titled "Dealing With People You Can't Stand". haha. i noe he cant stand me so hope it helps. =x im like gonna wrap it myself later dun i rock? ^^

okok. that is for so far what has happened. hmm.. later still got tuition agn at 530. zzz. ivan and ian coming my house tonight stayover. yeehaw liao. ^^ okok. im gonna take my hot bath now and play dota with ivan now. thats all for toady!

byeeeeeee!

it's time like this i wish trains were slower. by a lot? (:

2007-06-14T13:21:00.000+08:00

im gonna miss my bro. just came back from tekong. ):

ohh well! 2 weeks time see him again only la. in the mean time... enjoy chionging game on comp. yeeeeeeehaw! ^^

a photo of me & him in japan! mt. fuji there. (:

ok im lazy agn x=

2007-06-13T13:07:00.000+08:00

i've not been here for ages le.

i was so lazy to blog for like de first 3 days and after that my comp's net was down for some reason. lol. i lost all my japan photos as my comp got re-formated and upgraded. haha. 1.9G ram cant use finish de! ^^

sorry denise bout de japan photos? so far only anying has seen them. =\

my whole body aching now sia. guess its because of ytd training? yupp.. and that i last night never slp properly. even got neck ache sia. zzz.. add on the fact that my left thumb is slightly bigger than my right cause its sprained?

hmm.. suddenly lost inspiration to blog. i shall continue later~

2007-06-05T19:15:00.000+08:00

arghhh! nah bei. i just woke up. didn't go back chalet. lol.

zzz.. wonder how im going to get to slp later sia. =\ oh wells.. nvm.

siannnnnn la. i want go back de leh. fuck sia. some ppl in de house doesn't noe how to wake me up __ still say its my problem wow thks. ><

lol.. ok la also my fault la i didn't wake up when my alarm sounded. =x

2007-06-05T07:36:00.000+08:00

just got back from 2gh'06 chalet. didn't slp last night and what i wild night it was. yup. sort of.

spent most of my time alone i guess? yupp.. walking around aranda there. than also got this particular someone ah who owes me big time now ah made me walk until dunno how many blocks away from de chalet. lol.

went crossfire at abot 2+ near 3. kinda fun kinda boring. ian fell aslp playing dota. first time sia. how to fall aslp while playing dota? o.o

last night had many flashbacks somehow. yupp.. kinda nice yet kinda sickening in a way too. but its all in the past now.. guess memories are really things that will last with us throughtout our whole lifes and never fade or be undone. and thats like so fucked up for me. yup.

"what you doing here?!" was the best thing i heard the whole night bah. is like comfirm the best and soooo not unpleasant to hear and all. so much for showing concern to you or ever trying to ask how you are, b***h. and i know once again im being a bastard for saying that.

guess yanwei was right bah. i haven't done what i really should do. let go.. but yet somehow i miss it all. just a little small part of me thats real strong perhaps. this makes things even more fucked up ya? but not for you perhaps, cause you got the perfect life.

recently i've been wondering.. why am i like that? i can choose to be someone who just doesn't give a fucking damn about my relationships with other people and just toy with it. but apparently i aint like that. closer friends tell me i care too much.. maybe i do. good example would be me asking how you were.

nothing has changed since than i guess. i mean.. you're still as unappreciative as ever. and someone was so kind as to tell me that "your girlfriend will be very lucky" but guess is i suay la hor. nothing good bout me is left in your memory i guess. im just the bastard who didn't do anything or cared. yupp. (:

okk.. perhaps this is why i was quite reluctant to stayover at the chalet sia.. memories. in fact for almost every outing over the past many months? all the outings such as movies.. you were there i didn't want to go.

ohwell.. if i continue ranting on like this i feel like im whining like that sia. alamak like some gay fuck. lol. x=

to myself: just continue to try forgetting the unforgetable.

okok... japan photos still aint uploaded yet. too lazy le. haha. another time another time. yaa exactly. hehe. ^^

off to get some slp in my comfortable room and comfortable bed sia. last night never slp now gonna seh diao liao. but of course im going to bathe first and den.. yup. slp. afer that shall head back to de chalet.

i was a bad boy last night. a bad thief. a bad thief that almost picked up smoking.

2007-06-02T21:44:00.000+08:00

did anyone miss me? anyone... helloooo anyboooooody? how bout u? haha.

okok.. anyway! im back from japan. its been 9 days since i've felt so hot. the weather in japan is so much better. lazy to type everything out here cause imagine 9 days worth of post in 1. how long would that be? o.o

sooooooo..... i decided to upload pictures instead. but of cause i haven't taken the pictures out of my phone/camera. sooo..... another day. yupp..

spent lots of money in japan. ate lots of good food. saw alot of nice things and hmm.. dunnoo wad else to say. haha. maybe i shall say..... " i dun mind going back there agn in future " xD

ok since i got nth much to say i shall reply tags here instead as theres many? o.o

to pamela: yupp, i did get you chocs. and u owe me drinks! 7 bottles of lemon tea. xiexie ni ^^
to jiehui: haha. its ok la. i was the one who pull de chair away wad. haha. sry to u also.
to serene: wahh.. u tag alot sia. haha. miss me den use serene-ny as excuse right? haha.
to clare: japan so so nia. yupp but i dun mind going back. haha.
to xinling: haha. thankyou! same to u too! ok i shall go your blog tml. ;D
to jollin: yoooooo sucker! =x
to vanessa: mei~ i noe u missed me. like so obvious? o.o =p haha.

i know you didn't miss me.

2007-05-25T18:15:00.000+08:00

i got a new phone today~

sony ericsson k618i (: white colour de.

im gonna miss singapore alot. ):

i really do miss you.. but will you? i wonder.

im in a real rush now. byee~

off to tamp and den to de airport to japan! be back in 9 days.

2007-05-24T21:36:00.000+08:00

today i didn't go school agn. i overslpt cause i was on the phone till 345am and drank till 5 something and watched soccer. i didn't get drunk this time nor did i have a hangover. and i only slpt for 5 hours. =x

went eastpoint today and brought friends over. yup.. my new friends? o.o my house is boring but they still came like wow? haha. after that went to play bball wid my brother at 209 around 330pm. kianwei also came. quite fun de but i was damn tired. and de cut on my wrist opened up agn and bleed agn. zzzzz..

nth much happened today cause i didn't really do anything bah. yup.

my parents are coming to school tml to talk to my teachers. like wow. hope nth bad happens. either to me, my parents or my teachers. yup.

tml is gonna be a sad day for me. at first i tot i will be happy going to japan. but i feel sad about it. i'll miss my friends so much. i rmb the last time i 13 days mc nv see them also miss them like mad. i will miss basketball too and of course crossfire. i will miss u16 trainings also as i wont be able to attend 2 of them over the next 9 days. i will miss my dear dog lessie. and most of all i'll miss _____. ):

i've been real sad recently?

2007-05-23T20:09:00.000+08:00

oh ya! i got a new pet today! its a panda and its like... hmmm.. bottom left of my blog. haha. its a panda and her name is called serene-ny. named after serene! haha. but i still love my dog lessie more who is beside me right now! <3

2007-05-23T19:02:00.000+08:00

okok. first i shall start off with the fact that my shooting today is seriously fucking off. had a 3pt shoot out with ben and liangkai. first to make 20 win. apparently when they both completed i only scored 7?! like wtf am i doing la. im a shooting guard somemore and they are both inside players. o.o

okok. career fair today was fun at first. it was fun with de juniors de. but when it was upper sec turn i already got tired and jus sat at the bench the whole thing through. it was fun sort of bullying juniors and squirting water at ppl. yupp.. and giving out flyers too wasn't that bad. haha.

after the career fair thingy sch ended and we had the skill test thingy. totally a waste of time. suppose to do while de principals who came ahs for meeting looking. but apparently. they couldn't be bothered with looking and let us wait for them till 4+. idiots.

played 1v1 wid chunyong today too. yeehaw liao. lost 8-11. haha. i will never forget the last fuckshot sia. haha. but neither of us really was very serious in de game la. i was laughing like mad until damn tired. yupp. haha. *bow down to king chunyong leh*

after that cabbed home with him and this is de funniest thing that happened today!

me: got cab liao!!
chunyong: at this time surely will change to busy de.
me: bet?
chunyong: ok la.
*cab suddenly switches light to "busy. like wtf"
me: wtf?! kanina stupid cab driver!
chunyong: haha. told u so! so bet wad.
me: aiyah qia u cab la.
*second cab comes*
me: chunyong wan bet agn?
chunyong: dun wan la. haha.
me: this one comfirm tio liao. got bangala driver.
*cab driver covers 1 eye and drives past as in seriously*
me & chunyong laughs like mad.
me: kaninabei si bangala driver! fuck sia! *points middlefinger at the cab*
chunyong: haha.
me: lucky nv bet agn sia.

like wtf right!? haha. but damn funny though! haha.

ohh ya! serene painted my fingernail today! my left hand last finger. haha. but it scratch off mostly le. haha. i painted on her nails to. got a smiley there. haha. my masterpiece.. haha.

somemore! today i kena pangseh-ed by 2 ppl! i dun wanna mention names! ><

i backed out at the last minute, how pathetic? ):

2007-05-22T21:35:00.000+08:00

i made a new friend today! i don't really noe her but i've already talked to her last year! we seem to be able to talk alot. and thats good! i got a new friend? lol. xD

2007-05-22T20:21:00.000+08:00

today morning.. i lied to my dad i was going school! xD

went crossfire today. ivan joined me. but he was late la. one hour late only so nevermind la. haha. i reached there at 645. so damn shuang. first time i play lan so long. yupp. crossfire is indead i fun place to be.

den.. de first time i saw sunlight was at 330. when i stepped out of crossfire. i was seriously blinded by de light and couldn't open my eyes. =x

went eat prata after that and cabbed home wid chunyong & cheongheng. ivan came my house. played ps2 and talked alot of cock and hmm.. played bball in my garden~

ok.. there's seriously nth for me to blog about as i did so little things today.. so im off. xD

wo wei yi ai de jiu shi ni~

2007-05-21T20:47:00.000+08:00

had a real bad hangover today. i reached sch in the morn and didn't go down to assembly. slpt from 7 something till 10 something in de class on the table. had a sore neck after that? headache was quite bad and all.

today no teachers came into the class. it was kinda boring.

oh yah.. thks nicholas for playing my psp until no batt. i didn't even play it at all la.

had de bball survery thingy today. damn funny. mrhoo is damn funny. and he is also a man i respect alot. he told us his story of his 2001 competition. damn miracle. and de way he said it. omg.

"na ge michael. ta freethrow shi hen lan de. ke shi na tian ying gai shi ta tai guo jing zhang cai tou jing qiu de."

fucking funny. haha. yeeeeeeeeeeeeeehaw!

went crossfire after sch. like kinda obvious la. haha. lan damn shiok. only first game damn sian. =\ ccp called all of us la. cause he was looking for....

TAN CHEONG HENG! HE PLAY DOTA! THEY CALL HIM SMALLUNCLE!~ sing it to de linkin park's what i've done. damn funny. ian's de composer.

haha. damn irritating de calls. den gotta act act as if cheong heng not wid me and everything. x.x he got caning too toady. lol. yeeeeehaw steam hor cheongheng. =x

after lan came home to change and left house agn to play bball. was very fun today. but i was kinda off form agn. ohwell... i need to get over smth first bah. ):

jasper sprained his ankle today. ouchhhh. take care dude!~

why can't you get out of my mind? maybe its cause i don't want to ):

2007-05-20T21:13:00.000+08:00

here's a memory from last year: http://youtube.com/watch?v=1_3GcxbExU0

damn fucking funny after watching it agn and recalling the "behind de scenes". haha. 2006 was a great year. and very memorable one. (:

i dreamed i was missing

you were so scared

but no one would listen

cause no one else cared

after my dreaming

i woke up with this fear

what am i leaving

when i'm done here

so if you're asking me i want you to know

when my time comes

forget the wrong that i've done

help me leave behind some

reasons to be miss

don't resent me

and when you're feeling empty

keep me in your memory

leave out all the rest

don't be afraid

i've taken my beating

i've shared what i made

i'm strong on the surface

not all the way through

i've never been perfect

but neither have you

so if you're asking i want you to know

2007-05-20T10:46:00.000+08:00

damn freaking tired now like omg.. i slpt at 430 the previous day and about 330 last night. what irritating parents i got who cant even let me slp in peace. zzz... fuckers.

ytd u16 training was a waste of time la. dunnnno wad basketball clinic. should have gone to the off-centre play. would have been more worth it. x.x than somemore de u16 team sponsored stuff haven't come yet. sooooooooo long liao. ):

ytd i slpt for about 3 hours only. went lan in the morning.. yeeeeeeehaw! was so fun. den went simpang eat nasi brani. wah.. i cant eat that. wasted my money. x.x

after training i went tampines with intentions of buying a new watch. 118 bucks lol. but end up i changed my mind and decided to save money. but i spent 60 bucks plus on cds. im against piracy! =p NOT. haha.

den went eastpoint after that. tried to get a job for june there. de bubbletea shop. yupp. and went to check out how much is it to modify my psp. i shall do so before going japan man.

oh ya! my flight has been changed to friday! and its 9 days like omg. i dun wan to go currently as my relation with my parents aint good. nahbei. x.x

sacrifice made? ouchh... will i regret this?

2007-05-19T00:13:00.000+08:00

i've fallen so much that i cant get myself back together. you're so close yet so far. i can't stop thinking about you. its a real pain, to have a brain that doesn't stop working.

2007-05-18T22:44:00.000+08:00

i played bball for 3 days in a row le. tomorrow will be the 4th as i got u16 training.

jia lat.

today play bball leg already wanna break off le. tml still must go. oh wells.. im used to injuries? i hope. :(

im missing de off-center play tml cause of the training somemore. i really wanted to go watch it cause im quiet lazy to read de damn book. on top of that.. i still haven't bought de book. x.x perhaps i will get it soon and read it over the hols.

goshhh... its a real boring night. should have gone crossfire sia. nvm! i'll be going tml morning. yeeeeehaw! lim kopi! (:

waiting for damn naruto to buffer now. its like so damn freaking slow cant tahan! ><

oh ya! mr chua is going on a caning spree! and hair cutting spree soon. today he came my class agn and give us warning. amazingly first caning still to come for my class. haha. heard that 3E already got le. today. could hear the "piak" sound. haha. and de whacks on de table. so annoying. want cane dun need cane table right? stupid ass.

daryl kooi is the first contender to get caning in my class. kenneth koh is the second and unfortunately i'm the third. haha.

it sucks knowing that the one you love is being toyed with, especially when i can't tell the one i love about it ):

2007-05-17T19:58:00.000+08:00

im a vulgar boy. thus i say this post shall be vulgar. slightly. ^^

okk maybe not. shall not talk about all those bad stuff today cause its seriously very fucked up for me. nahbei kanina chao chee bye lan jiao bin fucked up. =x

sooo..... played lan today morning. again. yahhh. wid ian and kenneth. bloody hell. that game the SA comfirm maphack. loser. went simpang after that and tino came. yah.. sort of rushed through breakfast and cabbed up hill.

de cab journey was very funny though it lasted only a few minutes? ;D

checked through papers today so i was kinda bored during it? i have no paper to check. haha. kinda fun to see my mates get back their paper and look through for marks. i feel so carefree in class. haha. sorry mates. ^^

played bball again today. doing 360s are fun. haha. but seriously. i noe my leg cant take anymore bball for tml. i played more den 5 hours of bball in 2 days. my leg is really killing me. i should take care of myself like i promised someone. yuppp. an old fren.

i shouted at my mom today cause she was being a bitch.

2007-05-15T21:15:00.000+08:00

IM FINALLY GOING BACK TO SCH TML! ;D
&
I HAD A GREAT DAY TODAY AND IM SO HAPPY AND HIGH NOW!~

hahahaha. im very high now and thats why im having so many typo-errors. kinda annoying when i type so fast. haha. =x

today was fun. i went dentist at 1215 and met Jie at tampines!~ walked around and had lunch. tapenyaki! (is it spelled this way??) haha. so shuang.. den went walk around agn and got jasper's present! i got him a nice wallet. ;D i owe him very long le. yupp.. so thats one present down two more to buy? i still owe vanessa mei and edmund! figured out wad i'll get for edmund le but vanesssa's present is giving me a big headache! had a great time with Jie today! do well for your bio test tml! ;D

after that i met my friends! missed my friends. haha. caught spiderman 3 today. was quite disappointing. expected more from the movie but than...... its still nice and worth watching! (: okk.. the movie was with... ian, jasper, yicheng, ben, hongkai, liangkai, edmund & kenneth. did i miss anyone out?? nope guess i didn't. (: ian was fucking noisy through out de whole movie. but it was very entertaining.

after that we took bus 10 to crossfire. its been 2 weeks++ since i played lan. had a great time. but i only played 1 game and came home le cause i have naggy parents. >< haha. nvm. hols are here and can chiong more! haha.

now i owe alot of ppl money and im bankrupt. zzz.....

im going schoool tml! denise owes me ribena! shiokk. heard its dunno wad mini-olympics thingy. sounds boring but yet interesting. dunno wad me myself is saying. haha. ignore me den. ;D

wonder who it will be 10 years from now (: Jie you know wad i mean. haha.

2007-05-14T23:23:00.000+08:00

*&Y^!*&@^#

zzz....... i typed my damn password at least 4 times before getting into msn and another 2 times to get into blogger. whats wrong wid my dear fingers?

okayy... slowly type. >< raaaaa! still wrong typings. zzz.. oh wells backspace is always useful.

weee~ my hair is growing.. love it. im going dye it too before going japan! ohyaaaaaaa! i forgot to mention at my blog that im going japan. don't know when yet but its either before school closes or first week of june hols. ;D so means i wont be in country for bridging if i have to go for it. how wonderful. ^^

quite looking forward to going japan. dunno why i wanna get away from singapore for awhile. singapore has too many memories for me that some i wish to forget. >< every where i go now reminds me of smth la. things that were not meant to last forever perhaps. ^^

zzz... its getting boring agn.. why has my music stopped?! music has been part of my life for the past few weeks stoning at home. music is good form of entertainment no doubt.

i misss playing basketball! still haven't play yet hand itchy liaooo.

2007-05-14T19:47:00.000+08:00

today i was woken by a unexpected call.. a voice i long long long time never hear le. haha. edmund called me in the morn and asked to watch spiderman 3 tml after their exam. ;D

today was ok i guess? went town wid my brother. ate beef ball noodles. so nice.. ;D den went to make specs at wisma. my uncle got a shop there. didn't spend alot of time in town. came back to simei afterwards and we ate new zealand natural's ice cream. so shiok i didn't pay a single thing today except for my own honeydew sago after lunch.

ohhh ya! before that we cabbed to lavender de immigration building to renew my brother's passport. it was damn crowded la. irritating.. so we didn't bother to wait and just left for town. yuppp.

i should spend more time with my older brother before he goes ns. ^^

tml shall go out agn hopefully to watch spiderman 3. long time nv see my friends le. 2 weeks? yupp. cant wait for wednesday somehow too.. i kinda miss going sch. =\ amazing isn't it? haha.

ok im off to get changed and go visit my mom at the hospital (:

i just need the right broom~

2007-05-13T21:25:00.000+08:00

obviously i've changed my blogskin. nice ya? ;D

i still got 2 days of holiday. dunno wad to do sia.. doubt staying at home will be good for my body for the next 2 days.. i must go out. but where to?? zzzzz... singapore so small like nth to do sia.. oh wellss... i'll figure it out tml. ;D

i see that my archieves all 2007 de. so i decided to keep this blog updated for the whole year. make it 1 year old. ;D doubt i will be able to do it but den.. i'll try la =\

SO BOREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!

2007-05-09T21:48:00.000+08:00

i'm wasting my days la...

i spent the whole day playing ps2 today. didn't feel that timed passed so fast while playing but when i was done i was like... " ohh.. i forgot to eat lunch. "

pass feel days of eating medicine was hmm... bitter. but now i've finish my medication le and im still coughing my lungs out. how?? lazy go back to the doctor le la den go back there only waste money. zzz.. hope i can recover on my own bah.

i should really start playing bball agn sia.. rusty le maybe? and my muscles have lost their toning? lol. x=

okok.. acty is i miss playing bball and that i look very weak now. or maybe i always have been la. =\ ohh wellss.. back to the tvee~

2007-05-07T20:18:00.000+08:00

being sick sucks sia... want to sleep cant fall asleep. want play bball also cannot. than there's no game to play or very nice shows to watch at home. damn siann...

but the stupid medicine i eat causes drowsiness la. irritating.. spent half de afternoon trying to fall aslp but than... -.-

plus de weather today.. damn hot sia! dont let me fall aslp at least let me lie down in peace instead of lying down there and sweat sweat sweat. >.<

just watched something on tv and it reminded me of smth. ^^

" with this hand i will lift your sorrows.

your cup shall never empty for i shall be your wine.

with this candle i shall guide you through the darkness.

and with this ring i will ask you to be my wedded wife. "

guess what movie it was? ^^ wonderful memories.

hope tml will be a better day sia.. lie in bed wait for the clock to tick away and end de day is kinda boring? lol. waste of time sia.. can do so many other things de la. just that.. im not fit for examinations.. so im not fit for alot of other things including have fun? ><

2007-05-06T19:51:00.000+08:00

good luck for mid-year examinations to all.

i got 9 more days of mc and aint fit for exams. so shuang such a big load off me sia.. no mye stress like others ;D but being sick isn't good too =\

wonder what am i going to be doing sia next 9 days.. lie in bed rest rest rest like i've done so for the past week already. =\ borrringgggg.. but i aint fit to do anything too.. soo ohwells...... zzz..

2007-05-05T17:19:00.000+08:00

zzz.. so sian now... but also no energy to blog. MYE starts on monday and i'm looking at the unprepared me going for the examinations and getting myself into bridging.

i cant bring myself to hate you nor like you, not even to forget you. so you can go marry the whole world now if you put it that way. o.o

2007-05-04T19:19:00.000+08:00

food has lost its taste.. colours seem dull? im fucking weak now.

i can barely walk without the help of a support. i cant sleep without waking up every 2 hours to cough my lungs out. and i definately wont be able to survive without my warm jacket.

fever has gotten slightly better.. awhile high awhile low. cough seems to be getting worse. so is my throat. damn pain.. buay tahan. i haven't eaten anything in 3 days but quarter bowl of pork porridge, two cakes, two bananas and my medicine. if i die.. im guessing lack of energy.. not because of my sickness. x.x

zzz.. pressing the keyboard seems so hard now.. shall go off and rest agn..

it almost seems like my time is up.. but like i said.. seems. zzz..

2007-05-03T19:36:00.000+08:00

apparently im getting worse compared to yesterday..

it was just fever ytd but today throat also got infection. dunno wad thongsolyties. dunnnnno how to spell o.o but it simply hurts like mad when i talk/cough/yawn/swollow food. zzzzzzz..

also today after i was spitting blood out and went to see doctor agn.. damn jialat x.x

2007-05-02T22:46:00.000+08:00

oh yah.. forgot to mention something..

i feel that going around telling people i love you is something very retarded and dumb la.. especially when you do it as if you're giving out flyers la. and slowly, slowly it becomes meaningless.. love is a feeling for a special someone.. not a feeling for everyone. just felt like saying that out.

it was so hard for you to tell me those 3 words last time.. now you're using it so freely. i didn't recieve special attention.. always was neglected. now this question is stuck in my head... " did you ever love me? " but yet again.. let go tengrui, its for your own good.

i'm off to bed thanks to this splitting headache. goodnight (:

and one last thing.. i only said i feel like a bastard.. and it was you who called me that in the first place thank you -.-

2007-05-02T21:54:00.000+08:00

i didn't think the billabong jacket i bought would have any use for me in singapore. haha. it rocks man.. keeping me warm cause i feel so damn cold.. *shivers*

my temperature now is 37.6 (: getting better le but i still feel damn dizzy and when i cough my chest hurts like fuck. zzz.. having fever sucks? what happen if its dengue(is it spelled like that??) fever how!? the doctor says its jus normal fever but i dun feel so leh.. this is de worse case of fever i ever got la. ><

cough cough cough.

zzz so pain.. im slping away my days sia.. MYE coming le and i haven't study finish la. fuck sia.. surely wont get my target liao.. and surely need treat liangkai seoul garden liao.. zzzzz.... worst of all... my dad how? cheebye he sure scold me like mad de... zzzzz.. irritating.

i say im over it.. guess i aint. i realise something.. i dont get over things easily. i haven gotten over the fact we lost to jurong the other time and went to play cathigh for semi-finals in last yr nats. i haven gotten over the fact the i had a bad season this year... furthermore the fact bout u two. guess thats y im feeling like such a bastard ya? i feel guilty now.. i gotta learn how to let go.

*cough cough* im on the slow expressway to recovery. (:

2007-05-02T18:22:00.000+08:00

stayed home today cause of my fever.. kinda shiok to be able to stay at home slp de whole day and do nth sia.. but thats like wasting lots of time? my temperature nv drop below 37.7 today.. highest was 38.6? not sure.. but doubt its of importance anyway..

i aint going sch tml agn i guess.. got mc so jus use la hor.. dun waste ^^

dreams nv do come true.. their insignificant and jus another way to decieve one's self.

2007-05-01T21:58:00.000+08:00

what a great time for me to fall sick sia.. zzzzz..

had fever today.. highest was 39. something degrees. zzzzz.. sorry edmund cant make it today.

2007-04-29T21:54:00.000+08:00

MYE is jus like... 8 days away? zzzz..

screwed oral yesterday.. kept stumbling? lol.. went crossfire before oral. went sbc after it and had macdonalds' for lunch.. came home after that.. and i slacked through the whole afternoon till it was time for my tuition. boring day hor?

today ah.. woke up at 11+ and didn't do as i planned today. i wanted to study and do work.. apparently i didn't do so and jus slpt through the whole afternoon after lunch? jia lat sia.. im gonna study till 1 something later. to make up for lost time. yupp.. hopefully hor. ^^

what i boring and dull life im leading now.. it seems rather meaningless living this way.. oh well.. lets just see what does life has installed for me tml. hopefully it will be enjoyable (:

我像个残废

飞不出你的世界

借不到一点安慰

为什么你拼命后退

退到了边界

结果我没了知觉

就连痛都嫌浪费

在爱里残废非

弄得伤痕累累

累到我无力再追

最怕你突然要挽

回到了原点

原点却又像终点

然后多痛一遍

2007-04-26T21:49:00.000+08:00

I HOPE YOU DO SEE THIS. FUCK YOU SON OF A BITCH. GO SCREW YOUR BLOODY SELF LA NAHBEI. HURRY UP DIE AND GO TO HELL AND PERISH THERE LEH. CHAO CHEE BYE. I MUST BE THE MOST UNLUCKY PERSON ON EARTH TO BE YOUR SON MAN. _l_

2007-04-23T18:48:00.000+08:00

i think i sprained my finger today. if it isn't a sprain than its just injured la. =\

mom came down to find tantaiha to get my phone back. tantaiha sucks sia.. irritating bitch. fuck you kaninabeichaocheebye physics teacher. i swear you're de worst teacher i ever got la.

i got my shoes drenched and pants soaked while walking down the stadium there de steps to go look for shiyu to return her phone.. and guess what.. she already had cabbed up to school wid melinda when i reached the bottom of the stairs. >< haha.

now to think of it.. that incident is really stupid.

the feeling of giving up sucks ya? doesn't feel very great now =\ ohh welll~~ maybe its just the first few days of it and time will move on and things will get better. =\

2007-04-22T21:45:00.000+08:00

im feeling the stress of MYE now suddenly.. lol. that ain't a good thing as there's already alot of other things i need to care about. ><

"studied" with vanessa today. sorry that we didn't study alot la.. but at least a little tiny bit? =\

i've given up. u go ahead and do whatever u want from now on la.. aint my problem anymore. i aint gonna care nor bother..wow.. thats a big load of myself now that i dun need to care about YOU. and im really enjoying it thank you. i've gotten over you already.. but not her i suppose.

i really wish that i had those kind of parents who dun care about results much.. zzzzz.. apparently.. mine are over strict about it. though i cant disagree wid them that studies and results are important. =\

2007-04-19T21:23:00.000+08:00

crossfire in the morning was quite fun. amazingly we weren't late and more amazingly we didn't cab up the hill. haha. it was only me, ian, jasper & yicheng.

school was as usual. i kinda enjoyed floorball. but of course its nothing compared to basketball. (:

training after school. was one of the best trainings i ever had man. haha. we did standard warm-up and played match. 6 quarters of 15 mins. shioook. damn long. mixed players and de final score was 103-103. haha.

i still ain't performing up to the standard im suppose to. i could have done so much more during the game. but no doubt.. this was the best performance i had for this year. jia you to me~

i'm getting my IC tml. im happy bout it somehow but i guess its nothing big. yupp.

2007-04-18T22:18:00.000+08:00

thanks for making my day. shall go sleep now and not let anything ruin my happy moment. ^^

2007-04-18T20:56:00.000+08:00

mid-year exams are coming in 18 days! & we're still going crossfire so often like omg? tml late thursday.. morning before school going again. and than sunday most likely going again. wow... okok. sunday last day. really really. ><

okok.. im real real bored right now. so i decided to just write smth here. there's training tomorrow guys! last training for us till after MYE.

-// "You taught my heart, a sense I never knew I had

I can't forget, the times that I was

Lost and depressed from the awful truth

How do you do it?

You're my heroine!" \\-

2007-04-15T17:53:00.000+08:00

who said i ever was scolding you? guilty is it than now accuse me of scolding fuck you is it? -.-

aiyah.. whatever la i wrong again la hor. not refering to you i also wrong. so what.. for every word i use now too is a crime ah?

2007-04-12T22:21:00.000+08:00

damn.. i think i'm running a fever again. fuck it.. days have not been good for me recently. well.. at least most of it. i'm off to bed.

2007-04-12T22:06:00.000+08:00

i feel so much like shouting FUCK YOU BITCH right in your face.

fairness is not being shown. it never has and maybe never will. for everything i do, every action i make, i'm always in the wrong to you. it always has been this way ya? and you know what? despite all this hatred running through me at this very moment, i feel hurt. i feel lost. i feel like life as ended for me just like that. i feel like happiness doesn't exist for me anymore. perhaps this is what made the relationship so special to me now.

but i guess it aint no use no more. so just forget about it. i know i did try. maybe not my best try but than it just aint good enough for you. or so you feel. nothing has been good enough for you. yet again.. maybe it was you who just didn't know how to treasure what was given. you only look at the flaws and not the good side of things. i know you're a perfectionist. thats why things are like this now.

now to think of it.. should i even be bothered if i have been forgiven or not?

2007-04-11T21:01:00.000+08:00

don't know who to turn to in times of need now.. for every action of mine there will be a undertone. and its always a serious one for some reason. guess thats the way fate chooses to punish me for my wrong doings ya?

left school early today to go Changi General Hospital. boringg.. i waited 2 hours in total. what slow service. zzzzz.. my wrist is officially certified fit to do sports again le. but of course.. i've like started doing so 2 weeks back or so? maybe one day all my bones shall break and all my legiments will tear. ouch... sounds painful.

guess the one i should turn to now is myself. focus on what i should be doing and not on things i shouldn't even bother about. i lost so many things in a short 15 years of living. mistakes made cant be undone. example.. i lost this season of basketball. all i can do now is train hard and try again next year. i don't want to lose basketball.

besides basketball.. there's still studying. and like fuck it la.. tml still got socialstudies common test. i haven' study finish. perhaps i shall do so later. or maybe even not sleep tonight. ohwells..

and there's training again tml. my thigh muscles are still sore.

i know i will get over you. but will i get over her?

2007-04-10T20:17:00.000+08:00

i feel as if i have ripped my own flesh off. like i have stabbed my own heart. i know its something i will regret.. but at least you're happy. or should i say happier? things have finally came to an end between us. no hatred to each other, no love to each other. just a pair of strangers.

so this is how it feels like.. loneliness. the true feeling of not being loved. no someone to confide my feelings to. no matter how sad i am, or how happy i am, i dont have anyone to share it with. its all myself now. help myself, care for myself and live for myself. its all about finding someway to survive through life now and dying when the time comes.

i finally came to realise how.. pathetic i am. im no one. im nothing. it sucks the way things are now. everyone knows time cant be rewind or turned back. so i will be foolish to hope it does. so all i got to do now is.. get over this and continue with life.. by myself.

a scar that will not vanish forever.